Monthly Archives: September 2014

Two Hundred and Fifty-Two.

9/9/14

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Jordan Prosser succinctly deciphers the heart of seminal network TV shows:

“Fronds”
A sitcom about 6 different types of plant life living in a New York apartment, navigating life and love together.

“Grazier”
A hungry cow juggling their professional and personal life against the backdrop of 90s New York.

“Steers”
A bunch of male deer who hang out in a New York bar. “Grazier” is a spin-off of this show.

“Crill and Grace”
The enduring story of Deborah Messing’s ‘Grace’ and her microscopic crustacean best friend. Also the first widely watched sitcom to feature homo-crustacean relationships.

“How I Met Your Mollusc”
A sitcom and a love story, it takes hopeless romantic Ted Mosby 9 years to find the Mollusc of his future children.

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I sewed a spare stitch into my shirt
to remind my heart never to tear

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Two Hundred and Fifty-One.

8/9/14

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‘How do we collect so much bullshit over the course of our lives?’. Alice doesn’t mean to be particularly critical or negative as she thinks this, it’s simply a question. This is a crushing weight. Alice thinks how lovely it would be, how neat, if someone had an answer for this, a straightforward solution or a simple formula. She would really like some water. Maybe that’s all they’d need to solve the crippling tonnage, the emotional blockade colonising the houses and minds of the people on ‘Hoarders’. The only water she can see is a grubby puddle a few feet away. If we definitively knew how it was we ended up trailing so much junk behind us, surely we’d be able to make concrete decisions about it. It’s getting hard to breathe. Perhaps there would be a printed guide to let you know whether you needed two TV sets or three, or a new one. It is a bad sign when you breathe and your ribs don’t move. A desktop computer. The weight is unbearable. A laptop. It’s starting to shift. A tablet. This is a landslide. A smartphone. She’s almost under. And of course, a landline too. Swallowed by it. An abmaster pro. The husk of a microwave blocking the last of the light. A bread machine. She’d always wanted a bread machine.

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Well there’s a burnt butter moon riding high up tonight
burning cigarette holes in the black velvet sky
and it’s time for the show out on Marylebone street
where the gold-painted strippers are coming alive
and the tired old businessmen are opening wallets
and digging through pockets for rattling change
that the dry-cleaners left when their suits were last done
and they’re hoping their wives don’t clue into the game
all the thighs of the women are snaking up close now
and the music is moaning, it sounds like it’s crying
the lights sputter down through the haze and the incense
and the sirens are dancing for a million eyes
a corseted redhead begs a man to untie her
and his fingernails snag on the knots in the ribbon
he whispers denials to his lover back home
in the back of his head as the silk falls away
the glasses are ringing like bells chimed at Christmas
and the teetering barflys are grinning like wendigos
god comes up strutting and orders a whiskey
and settles down central to take in the show

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Two Hundred and Fifty.

7/9/14

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I want to say things like ‘fear nothing’ and ‘there is nothing to fear’.

I want to shout, ‘it’s me, you guys! it’s really truly me!’.

I want to art so hard motherfuckers wanna fine me.

I want to stare so hard and so long the sun starts to blind me.

say ‘fly higher’, say ‘dive deeper’, say
‘don’t pick the scabs’ but also
‘scratch the itch’.

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Spring is in the air, and on the wind I remember
that party on the hill, surrounded by strangers and thick teen sex
pot smoke sending terror into my little girl guts
and alcohol smoking into my grown girl chest
staring into the darkness and feeling the new vibrations of loneliness
of wanting a person to press between me and the night
of feeling stranded in my own body, the wholeness of youth run away
later, lying quiet in a flimsy green tent
pretending not to hear the awkward wet kisses
and hushed hot breathing from the two teens beside me
feeling the stars fill me up bright as day
and empty as the universe

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Two Hundred and Forty-Nine.

6/9/14

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I love your immensities.

all the things that cannot fit inside you,
all the things you cannot put to rest in me

the parts of you that expand and reach
that cannot be contained, even by the sky.

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Little love, we are so far from heaven
and when I press my ear to the earth
God has stopped calling me home
we are adrift here, in this ocean of sorrow
with our compasses cracked and old
I am the stillness in the morning
I am the smoke on the air
I am the whisper in the darkness
and I cannot save us from ourselves

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Two Hundred and Forty-Eight.

5/9/14

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There is a single piece of popcorn in here with me, on the tiled floor. If popcorn could look sullen, this would be it. No – accusing – that’s it. I’m sitting in a toilet stall at Cineworld with a single, accusatory piece of popcorn and the door is sighing open because the lock is broken and I couldn’t be bothered moving to another stall. I can’t stand people who take food into toilets. Someone brought their popcorn right into this cubicle and placed it on the floor while they did their business. It freaks me out. Drinks not so much, for some reason. They really should have the candy bar after the toilets at the cinema, to avoid this situation. Maybe that’s not good business practise. Maybe the toilets need to be protected from people who aren’t paying customers. The door is wide open. There’s a short, squat woman in her mid-fifties looking at me with her lips sort of pursed in horror. She’s not moving, just staring, and the moment seems to stretch. It looks like she’s stapled her décolletage to her neck with gold chain so it can’t run away. Her white capris are shivering. Her gauzy zebra print blouse flutters under the fluorescence. I stand and slam the door in her face, hear the shuffle of white kitten-heel sandals stumbling backwards. The popcorn is still looking at me.

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I smelled the smoke on the air a mile away
and so when I arrived home, I was ready
stepped over the charred threshold just like Bruce Willis would
gazed coolly at the smoking remains of my bedroom
took grim pleasure in the twisted face of a childhood doll
brushed ash off a photo of my family just like Hollywood taught me to
and had a good breath ready for the piece de resistance
dropped to my knees in a safe patch of ground
hinged open my mouth, turned my head to the sky
and screamed, just like Leo Dicaprio
screamed ‘FUCK
YES
FINALLY’

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Two Hundred and Forty-Six.

3/9/14

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sext:
I love you like the silence after a storm.

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This year, kids, we’re getting a real Christmas tree and we’re going to put it right in the living room, right in front of the tv, and we’re going to sit underneath it on Christmas morning and we’ll look into each other’s eyes and see that glorious tree reflected right back. And we’re going to leave it there through December, while it slowly turns brown and harsh, and through January, when the heat bleaches it, and through February, when it’s shattering the carpet with discarded needles, and on and on as it slowly dies in front of us, turning sick and black and dead in the middle of the room, and that is how we will remember every day, every single goddamn day, the way your father fucked his marketing manager the week before Christmas and ruined this perfect family once and for all.

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Two Hundred and Forty-Five.

2/9/14

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sext:
I often think words cheapen experiences, so shut up and kiss me through your retina display screen.

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sarah

Your silence streaked the sky
and this time, the chemtrails were true
the birds fell mute, coughing out their songs as air
the river stopped chanting its ages-old gabble
the cars swept unheard through the freeways
and kangaroos bounced off their bonnets like rain

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Two Hundred and Forty-Four.

1/9/14

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sext:
this is the way two hands fit together, this is the way two become one, this is the original signed copy of the spice girls ‘spice’ album, hand-wrapped and delivered to your door.

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I’ve eaten too much pasta again
it’s happening more and more
and I find myself standing in the hallway
stomach distended, hand to my belly
tracing the swollen shape
practicing my beatific smile
and chuckling ‘oh, but you should see me in the mornings!’
I think I can feel a kick!
Ah no, it’s just indigestion
I am the mother of spaghetti
and a spicy lentil sauce
and I am glowing

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Two Hundred and Forty-Three.

31/8/14

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sext:
I would watch TV for hours with you even if the screen went static.

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I know the fear’s real because it slides down the sides of my stomach
not sharp and central, the way anxiety bites me
and I walk with proud purpose, pushing aside dog-walkers
skirting around children with my eyes on high beam
I take down license plates of cars I don’t know
which in this city is all of them, so I take down a lot
I wish bikes had license plates too
instead, I stare down a cyclist and take his dashing exit as a sign
I decide that I can’t be the one to break the news to your mother
whatever that news is
I decide that I will let the police speak to her first, lay the track
and then I will barrel down it with my train whistle words
shooting out steam in the shape of insubstantial apologies
night is falling, of course, and I am perfectly calm
as I jog down the road in search of your face
when it comes, I am facing the wrong way
and it all feels wrong, like I was mean to be the hero
but I missed the memo and turned up at the wrong time
we are silent and panting as I walk you back home

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